Oscar's not-so-optimistic-anymore Journal.

Latest reports from my amazing life and some unoriginal thoughts.

(the spaceship will take you back to the frontpage)

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29.06.2020.

A slice of Russian abnormalcy to have some rest from the international baizuo freak parade.

This is what polling stations for our "constitutional amendments" look like. Yes. A stump, a well, a couple of babushkas. Imagine the transparency!

This is the way we're supposed to decide the future of our constituion, which is obviously predetermined. Not only will it nullify the previous terms of the Midget, allowing him to be re-"elected" in 2024, but it will also guarantee personal safety and legal immunity for ex-presidents (all two of them, if anyone remembers that the Midget was replaced by the Sub-Midget for one term, nevermind the first president since our beloved drunkard is already perfectly safe in hell). What the occupational government fails to admit is that those who will come to replace them won't pay much attention to any constitution, let alone a document edited by the Midget's mob. A peaceful transition of power is not possible at this point.

When West chose Liberia as its role model, Russia chose Zimbabwe. You thought that China will rule the world? Hell no, it took Africa only a couple of decades to become the greatest influencer. All hail planetary Wakanda!

The future looks bleak, and the window of opportunity is narrowing on both sides of the ocean. Without organized resistance, finding an empty landmass to colonize is our last chance to have nice things on Earth. I'm looking at you, Australia.

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27.06.2020.

Excellent (although of somewhat defeatist nature) articles must be shared! "A Country not Salvageable" by Fred Reed.

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24.06.2020.

Shogun 2 is the best Total War game thanks to being homogeneous.

Additional information: Ashigaru lives matter.

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21.06.2020.

Go to church.

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18.06.2020.

ни за что ни про что суки замочили

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15.06.2020.

Fallout 1 was a Tolkienian story of a White man's heroic struggle against globalism and a true inspiration for us all.

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09.06.2020.

“A fire broke out backstage in a theatre. The clown came out to warn the public; they thought it was a joke and applauded. He repeated it; the acclaim was even greater. I think that's just how the world will come to an end: to general applause from wits who believe it's a joke.”


― Søren Kierkegaard

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08.06.2020.

Hey kids! Enjoying this "future" of yours? Mind if I look?

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04.06.2020.

America being trashed over a crackhead who did porn is somewhere on par with the misdeeds of Heliogabalus. History is getting very entertaining again. Living through it - not so much. Also, somehow the black life of David Dorn, a retired police officer who died at the hands of looters, does not matter at all. We should not let him be forgotten. This is all I have to say on this matter, as I am not a cargocultist and I live in an actual police state with real political oppression that never gets adressed by the rest of the world.

Retired St. Louis police captain shot dead amid unrest outside ...

P.S.: We suffered through bolshevism so no one else in the world ever has to. America, don't let this happen to you. You gave the world the tastiest cigarettes and the sturdiest pants, it all shouldn't end like this.

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01.06.2020.

COFFEE IS A REAL DRUG IF WE TALK ABOUT 10 CUPS IN A DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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31.05.2020.

Did Byzantines ever protest in front of West Roman embassies demanding "justice" and more freedoms for Germanic looters?

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29.05.2020.

Medieval people believed that avoiding bathing may protect them from the plague. I suppose I am a Medieval man myself.

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25.05.2020.

Apparently we won't be returning to the university until autumn. Autumn sounds much better than "fall", don't you agree? Otherwise, American English is superior, no doubt.

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20.05.2020.

Neocities is what the Internet is supposed to be. Either be able to write an HTML page, shitty or not, or remain silent. A world of creators instead of a world of users.

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18.05.2020.

Emily of vodkabinereb.neocities.org made this marvelous button for me

Come check out her cool stuff ! ! ! ->

Her "about" section says she's 16, just like when I started this site. I wonder what drew the next generation into this nostalgia thing, not all the people in their early 20s even experienced Windows 95/98 (I did though, God bless Russian poverty). The world seems flavourless enough today to make the youth miss something they didn't even live through, as "today" barely offers anything to miss in the future. In four years people who never had to buy a physical CD to play a videogame will be 20. People born in the year of Windows XP's release will be 20 in a year. Hell, people born under Putin's rule here are over 20 by now. I only lived in Yeltsin's presidency for a month. What's worse, being late to the party or not witnessing it at all?

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16.05.2020.

We're the second most infected country and the greedy bastards want everyone back to work. Remind you that Russians haven't recieved a single kopek of financial support this whole time unlike the residents of the "decaying West" :^)

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10.05.2020.

hello

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08.05.2020.

I've lost my cousin-uncle to this plague, and even though he was an old and sick man who had a very hard life, it is a reminder for us all to take it seriously. I will miss him, wish I had the chance to know him better.

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29.03.2020.

WHEN WILL THIS HAPPENING UNHAPPEN???

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21.02.2020.

Killed a dude with a freaking smoke grenade on dust2 :^DDDDDDDD.

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18.02.2020.

I saw the son of Tarkovsky. He made a wonderful documentary on his father's work. Looks a lot like him.

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08.02.2018.

There's this vidyagem me and my friend work on. It's set in a post-collapse Russian village in 1992. When people are hungry, poor and having no idea how to call the country where they live now, aliens come to show them what really matters in this life.

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07.02.2020.

Didn't write here nor my actual paper diary the whole January for some reason. Not many updates, just working on my stuff. The only funny thing I'd probably tell about is that Kygryz taxi driver who gave me a free ride back home from the place I needed to visit quickly just for how nice the conversation we had was. Any other cool stuff I forgot to tell you? Tons of it, honestly. I think I didn't tell about seeing Steven Seagal in person. Do people outside Russia even remember who the fat guy is? Maybe I should promise you more updates but I doubt anyone still reads my journal. The audience is lost. Oh well. Should be making more content for my YooToop. Also: Looking for pre-2000 porn online through web archive is my new hobby, you only get deeper down the iceberg by playing Sven Co-op porn maps while frapsing the gifs. The amount of cp is scary, yet somehow no one is erasing it from the archive. I wonder if I can awake mutated prehistoric viruses that will eventually destroy all computers of the 21st century across the globe one day. Remember that porn is destructive to your soul and I'm only doing this for historical research. My other new hobby is buying old full packs of cigarettes from the 20th century. Went as far as the 70's now. Cigarettes really do last forever in proper conditions. Tobacco was a whole different deal back then, I swear. It's fantastic. Cuban especially. Can you believe they sold highest grade Cuban cigarettes and cigars dirt-cheap back in the USSR? We were "friends" with them after all. People didn't buy them though, we had no cigar culture and the cigarettes were considered too harsh even by Russian standards. Fools, they never knew what they missed. And the music on this page is back on somehow, yo.

(Sempai did not notice me...)

(Just a picture of me and a Moskvich-412, combined with one of the old pornsite artefacts. Isn't it funny how people always comment "OMG ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE DEAD" on videos from before the 1930's uploaded to YouTube but not a single soul would ever feel pity for the 1998 beastiality porn dog who's most certainly dead by now)

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01.01.2020.

We will win.

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24.11.2019.

That new Half-Life game's as much of a spit into my face as the fall of the Soviet Union and the consuming masses are so happy about it.

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06.11.2019.

Turned 21. No great gifts but we had a good dinner. I'm learning to enjoy small things as I grow older.

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01.09.2019.

I have returned from Dagestan to Moscow only yesterday and I already want back. Big cities are unfit for humans, read Kaczynski.

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11.07.2019.

Sven months in and I can say that I was not overreacting with the "oh no no" thing.

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09.04.2019.

Four months in and I can say that I was slightly overreacting with the "oh no no" thing. Everything goes better than I expected.

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01.01.2019.

Oh god no no no no no

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06.11.2018.

A pack of Marlboro from 1995 was one of the best birthday gifts ever. And now I'm 20.

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27.10.2018.

This journal entry is empty.

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23.10.2018.

A guy was getting murdered right in front of us but we kinda saved his life by calling cops, luckily there was a patrol car passing by.

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16.10.2018.

hello

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12.10.2018.

Made some cash betting on shit. Go for it, kids!

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02.10.2018.

I have lost all my money betting on shit. Don't do it, kids.

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16.09.2018.

Today was the first day of actual autumn. It's ugly. Whoever says he enjoys such weather is a liar.

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05.09.2018.

Now that I'm no more a NEET the only thing I regret is not being able to spend as much time playing csgo.

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11.08.2018.

I finally feel good about myself!

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16.05.2018.

Daggerfall is a great game. For 1996.

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14.06.2026.

Hairy pubes and armpits on women become the norm again as the only positive achievement of feminism. Madonna experiences a second peak of popularity. People start complaining: "they promised us a colony on Mars and hoverboards, but all we got is this". Stalker 2 is still not released. Neither is Bannerlord.

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14.05.2018.

Quick rundown on current events: 1) Was arrested for two days, it was okay. 2) Got drunk and somehow ended up in some drunkard's place after he promised to draw a portrait of me, his violent alcoholic son nearly killed me but I escaped.

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28.04.2018.

Ever burned pizza so bad that you had to eat the topping off with a fork and throw the crust away?

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24.04.2018.

If I was offered transforming into any animal I want with possibility of keeping the human life expectancy, intelligence and my memory of my past life I'd turn into the most intelligent cat in the world. Additional information: the apocalypse did happen back in 2012, it just didn't mean we were all supposed to die overnight. The world changed and went past the point of no return, we're all doomed to live in the post-2012 twisted reality but it will be a slow death, like smoking.

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20.04.2018.

Where is everyone wehen im drunk and have nothing to tlak to where are the frends. also ps heappy birthdayu to adledf hrotler no matter what u think of his. he made space sciec nc e a reality. im sorry

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22.12.2032.

Shemale porn with shemales indistinguishable from females creates a wave of trannies who intendedly make themselves look uglier (by taking cheap past-gen hormones manufactured in Vietnam and East Germany) to appear more like men since traps are gay and people of the past watched shemale porn only because they were gay but ashamed to admit their deviation. Videogames got more realistic as well.

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14.04.2018.

In hollywood there's a conspiracy of turning transsexuals like Taylor Swift or Angelina Jolie into sex symbols in order to create more homosexuals and feminized men. It's been happening since the 1930's, Greta Garbo was their first project. They killed Hitler for trying to stop them. But we will have our revenge.

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12.04.2018.

Cave Canem is Latin for "beware of the dog". Use it as the name of your post-punk band before someone else does it.

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somewhen.somewhere.2018.

If Bones Grow Back Why Can't Teeth Grow Back?

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11.1.2018.

I like fantasy films that just don't even try to be believable. Finally watched Interstate 60 yesterday and thought that everything the main character had to go through was just his coma dream, but in the end the director decided to prove that everything that happened was, indeed, "real". He found the way to make this miracle believable without having to bother to explain the existence of a nonexistent interstate highway. Or, think about "Being John Malkovich". It surely takes place in our world where something like a tunnel to Malkovich's brain is not possible, but the film itself is made so well you don't even question it, and it becomes easy to suspend your disbelief.

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06.1.2018.

Woke up from a nightmare. I was in Hell, I think. But Hell turned out to be a huge gallery of Caravaggio's paintings. Raging giant bulls roamed around the place, tearing and hurling people around. People tried to run, but I thought: if I'm already here, there's no escaping. I stood still waiting for the bull to kick me out, and as soon as he got me, the scene suddenly changed. A rider appeared on the bull and I was in his hands, I was the size of a mouse compared to him. It must have been Satan himself. He didn't seem to be evil at first, but then, when I told him that he doesn't need to do this, he "squeezed" me out like a tube of toothpaste. And I felt pain. Real pain, it was the most"painful" dream I ever had in my life. The pain was still there after I woke up, just for a second or less, but it still followed me into the real world. It was somewhere in my back. Probably just slept in wrong position.

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03.1.2018.

I asked a writer a qusetion regarding his story by email and he replied. It was nice.

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31.12.2017.

Crappy new year, gentlemen!

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25.12.2017.

List of life achievements 2017: killed someone with a flashbang in csgo

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